3. I have stopped taking care of myself and started eating everything under the sun
It's crazy!! I knew that I had veered off the road to the good life...everything else starts to go down hill when you do. You can tell the difference..SERIOUSLY!!! I re-read what I first posted in the blog and had an epiphany. Answer this question, why when we need God, we pray and fast and make all kinds of promises? As soon as He blesses us, as He did for me (paying my bills and my cruise off) we forget about Him? We stop praying. As soon as I paid the cruise off I celebrated with some wine and spirits..lol..The struggle is real let me tell you. :-)
It was two months later when I realized that I am on a different road. Not the road I started this blog on. Not that it was then that I had this realization...I just woke up at this point. So, lately I've been stressed, needing spending money for said cruise coming in two weeks. Car repairs have popped up, school payments are due...started being so stressed to the point where two days ago I started having mild chest pains and then a pulsating pressure in my left arm through my left hand. I knew I was stressed. What do I do, run to the Lord of course!!!
I said "Lord, I am too young to have a heart attack and I refuse to be stressed. I refuse for my hair to fall out and I refuse to live this stressful life because I want to do things my way. I now realize that I need you. I need your guidance, your opinion, your support...I need YOU!" At that moment I vowed that I needed to get out of the woods and get back on the road to the good life....that road to peace, love, spirituality and prosperity.
I started again yesterday reading the Bible for 20 minutes and trying to keep my heart and ears sensitive to the Holy Spirit's guidance. When I have my mini Bible study, I write down the message I received from what I've read. It helps that the type of Bible I have has notes from Joyce Meyer and it is called The Every Day Life Bible. It is awesome!! Also, the Lord made me draw a road in my notes and add myself as a stick person travelling this road. lol..He said that if I veer off of the road (doing things that are displeasing to Him), to move my stick man off of the road. Doing this will help me to stay focused and stay on the road. I know it may sound lame to you but I definitely believe that this will help. I mean look what happened!!! I closed my eyes one good time and here I am 2 months later with no growth from when I first started this walk.
Saying all this to say...don't just talk to God or whatever higher power you believe in when you need Him. It's when you do not need Him and you talk to Him your faith grows. Trust that He has your best interest in mind and you cannot go wrong communicating with Him on a daily basis. With that said, I will chat with you guys soon.
"Life is about choices. Enjoy life and choose your destiny!"